Comments on: Alone http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/ Islam, Philosophy, Art, Politics, Relationships, Insanity Sat, 22 Nov 2008 14:34:06 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.5.1 By: fatimahye http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-672 fatimahye Fri, 27 Jun 2008 02:03:07 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-672 ha ha obviously i never drank (alhamdulillaah) - but yah, i always feel sick afterwards - whats sad is most gatherings end up being sources of regret, not benefit - i guess its a blessing and a curse to be isolated... but you know lately ive been thinking along these lines - oh allah, YOU created those people (whom i either want to be with or not) so even though of course im human and sometimes crave friendship or love, its like all you really need is allah - i just wish i was pious enough for that to be true all the time lol and i envy those who have "made it", mashallah ha ha obviously i never drank (alhamdulillaah) - but yah, i always feel sick afterwards - whats sad is most gatherings end up being sources of regret, not benefit - i guess its a blessing and a curse to be isolated…

but you know lately ive been thinking along these lines - oh allah, YOU created those people (whom i either want to be with or not) so even though of course im human and sometimes crave friendship or love, its like all you really need is allah - i just wish i was pious enough for that to be true all the time lol and i envy those who have “made it”, mashallah

]]> By: Umm Layth http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-671 Umm Layth Fri, 27 Jun 2008 01:05:28 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-671 What a way to describe it (drank too much). I suppose it is a feeling of 'too much' of something for me too, just don't truly understand it. Sometimes being away from people will depress me and other times it depresses me to be near people. It's strange, and I feel you on the interview or speaking to an audience. It's much easier for me to be in a group of sisters and feel comfortable but much harder on me to feel relaxed one on one, etc... Somewhere between an introvert and an extrovert I am... What a way to describe it (drank too much). I suppose it is a feeling of ‘too much’ of something for me too, just don’t truly understand it. Sometimes being away from people will depress me and other times it depresses me to be near people. It’s strange, and I feel you on the interview or speaking to an audience. It’s much easier for me to be in a group of sisters and feel comfortable but much harder on me to feel relaxed one on one, etc…

Somewhere between an introvert and an extrovert I am…

]]> By: fatimahye http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-660 fatimahye Wed, 25 Jun 2008 20:52:05 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-660 man, its weird so many of you could relate to this post - umm layth, you know something you said reminded me of something else - once in a while i'll go to a party or something and i might even relax for a bit and have a good time with sisters there, find someone interesting, etc. but what's odd is when i get home, i feel like i drank too much or something lol - like i feel like throwing up - i have no idea why - i guess i'm not used to it? oh that's another thing - i can actually perform or speak to an audience or something so again people think maybe she's social but its quite an impersonal experience to be up in front of hundreds of people - its no direct contact or anything (its MUCH harder to perform in front of like 5 people)- or to be in an interview - that's like not "personal" to me - its just verbalizing experiences... man, its weird so many of you could relate to this post - umm layth, you know something you said reminded me of something else - once in a while i’ll go to a party or something and i might even relax for a bit and have a good time with sisters there, find someone interesting, etc. but what’s odd is when i get home, i feel like i drank too much or something lol - like i feel like throwing up - i have no idea why - i guess i’m not used to it?

oh that’s another thing - i can actually perform or speak to an audience or something so again people think maybe she’s social but its quite an impersonal experience to be up in front of hundreds of people - its no direct contact or anything (its MUCH harder to perform in front of like 5 people)- or to be in an interview - that’s like not “personal” to me - its just verbalizing experiences…

]]> By: fatimahye http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-654 fatimahye Wed, 25 Jun 2008 02:10:33 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-654 and i'm SO relieved to hear you're ok - you scared me! and i’m SO relieved to hear you’re ok - you scared me!

]]> By: fatimahye http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-653 fatimahye Wed, 25 Jun 2008 02:10:01 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-653 assalaamu 'alaikum wa rahmatullaah! look bro im sorry if i offended you - but you kinda took all this the wrong way - i wasnt trying to "toot my own horn" LOL - i was severely depressed when i wrote this - and still am unfortunately - i was just writing about the experience and all - i didnt mean to exploit your emails to me or anything - just that's what i do sometimes - write anonymously about people ive come in contact with or questions i get asked etc. but anyway listen i in no way wish to hurt you and DO care about you and well everyone out there who feels like this, EVER - i mean i almost came on and made an open "write to me if you ever need a sympathetic ear" type call, but thought it would be too lame - but its seriously how i feel - i sometimes just overwhelmingly feel other peoples' pain - its like i cant stand another person to be hurt because i get hurt so much so please chill - dont assume im out to get you or have any negative view of you, because i dont (we're one and the same lol) assalaamu ‘alaikum wa rahmatullaah!

look bro im sorry if i offended you - but you kinda took all this the wrong way - i wasnt trying to “toot my own horn” LOL - i was severely depressed when i wrote this - and still am unfortunately - i was just writing about the experience and all - i didnt mean to exploit your emails to me or anything - just that’s what i do sometimes - write anonymously about people ive come in contact with or questions i get asked etc.

but anyway listen i in no way wish to hurt you and DO care about you and well everyone out there who feels like this, EVER - i mean i almost came on and made an open “write to me if you ever need a sympathetic ear” type call, but thought it would be too lame - but its seriously how i feel - i sometimes just overwhelmingly feel other peoples’ pain - its like i cant stand another person to be hurt because i get hurt so much

so please chill - dont assume im out to get you or have any negative view of you, because i dont (we’re one and the same lol)

]]> By: Anon. http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-645 Anon. Wed, 25 Jun 2008 00:54:01 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-645 'In the mean time, I sometimes get people who want my help - I guess I am so open about my feelings, they feel they can trust me. I am very sensitive, so I do have a lot of compassion - I really feel for people and I want to help them if I can, even if I’m a nut.' My guess is that you failed Humility 101. - your favourite lucid sociopath ‘In the mean time, I sometimes get people who want my help - I guess I am so open about my feelings, they feel they can trust me. I am very sensitive, so I do have a lot of compassion - I really feel for people and I want to help them if I can, even if I’m a nut.’

My guess is that you failed Humility 101.

- your favourite lucid sociopath

]]> By: Anon. http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-644 Anon. Wed, 25 Jun 2008 00:49:04 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-644 I suppose you are right, though- I *do* trust you. I suppose you are right, though- I *do* trust you.

]]> By: Anon. http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-643 Anon. Wed, 25 Jun 2008 00:45:35 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-643 "I guess I am so open about my feelings, they feel they can trust me." Oh- that is precious. But don't flatter yourself- it's the anonymity ;) “I guess I am so open about my feelings, they feel they can trust me.”

Oh- that is precious.

But don’t flatter yourself- it’s the anonymity ;)

]]> By: Maria http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-636 Maria Tue, 24 Jun 2008 03:20:13 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-636 You remind me of myself. You remind me of myself.

]]> By: Anon http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/2008/06/22/alone/#comment-630 Anon Mon, 23 Jun 2008 10:49:23 +0000 http://fatimahye.muslimpad.com/?p=133#comment-630 As-salaam-u-alaikum sister I identify with parts of what you feel - being an ODDBALL in school, though suprisingly I did end up making a lot of friends by the time i was a teen - the wrong kinds, though! And yes, it still feels lonely. And yes, there are lts of times when you wonder before even opening your mouth - will anyone even UNDERSTAND? AND YES, this sister is also trying hard to build a relationship with THE ONE so that there's no need and I do crave this tranquility you have when alone - becuase at times I have none - whether alone or in company!! As-salaam-u-alaikum sister

I identify with parts of what you feel - being an ODDBALL in school, though suprisingly I did end up making a lot of friends by the time i was a teen - the wrong kinds, though! And yes, it still feels lonely. And yes, there are lts of times when you wonder before even opening your mouth - will anyone even UNDERSTAND? AND YES, this sister is also trying hard to build a relationship with THE ONE so that there’s no need and I do crave this tranquility you have when alone - becuase at times I have none - whether alone or in company!!

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